upsidedowned saraswathi

saraswathi=godess of knowledge.
so where do i figure in that one?
skimming the skies with my toenails only!
a year has passed,is passing,heck,its passed.
im looking at everything with dimmed eyes.i cry more frequently for no apparent reason...this realization comes seconds after the moment.
and then i feel like a silly fool who doesnt know how to comprehend the world around her.
maternal love has never been such a meaningful factor for me.i missing mummy.strange,you say?me the detached little absorbant/observant prune!

animation film designer. aiiyo. why the tag. and will i get it?lately everything seems unfair.i got a b+ in design drawing,for gods sake ive got piles of extra work.and quality too.c+in science and liberal arts.all because of a late assignment.
its hard to imagine these could affect so much.
so much.